Showing posts with label pain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pain. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 27, 2019

Scene change



I am participating in the
 Slice of Life.  
All participants are writing about one moment, one part of their day, 
on Tuesdays.
Thank you, Two Writing Teachers!


This past summer was slow and emotional, with much loss and love. We had the challenging work of emptying out my parents' things for the very last time and moving treasures by U-haul. We had the painful, hard, deeply loving work of being present for the death of my brother-in-law, from lung disease. We had tender, dear moments with my 90 year old father, in his nursing home, who has trouble communicating with us, yet clearly feels embraced by our presence. In and around the 'hard,' we had sweet time with our granddaughter ('Frog'), now 10 months old, and sprinkles of time lost in good conversations with friends and family, or immersed in reading novels, or writing and journaling, or digging in the garden dirt.

It was a summer,
rich and varied and slow.

Now, scene change: intense time and thought and action, all about school. Two weeks of professional development, new staff, revised procedures, discipline statistics, equity goals, planning lessons, duty schedules, special education details, classroom purchases, collaboration, classroom setup, long days, and, just this week, first days of school, welcoming new preschoolers and families. I am very much on auto-pilot, having done this for so many years now. I am excited and delighted by my new kiddos and families. I look forward to this year of teaching. This year, however, begins like a hastily-wiped whiteboard - with that residue bleeding through of what was before. I am still processing my summer, in the midst of the new.




Tuesday, July 23, 2019

Unexpected sunset



I am participating in the
 Slice of Life.  
All participants are writing about one moment, one part of their day, 
on Tuesdays.
Thank you, Two Writing Teachers!


My husband's brother is in hospice, at end of life. I wrote this poem as we traveled by car from Maryland to Georgia, to be alongside him. Have you had that sensation where every song you hear seems to apply to the pain you are currently feeling? This was true for us, as we drove...and influenced this poem a bit. 


Unexpected Sunset

Unexpected sunset,
sky bursting
red and orange,
white, gray, and darker still,
interspersed with puffs of blue,
followed by
a gorgeous
full moon.
Last breaths.
Many long highway miles,
stretch and fatigue,
so many aching
thoughts,
fleeting words,
whispers of love,
all along the highway,
as we travel
to be bedside
before
last breaths.
Listen to Roseanne and Bruce wail,
like a lost ship,
adrift on the sea,
sea of heartbreak,
lost love and loneliness.
We are heartbroken,
this suffocating pain,
a life too short.
Unexpected sunset.
Full moon.
Last breaths.

In the midst of so much pain,
there is great beauty.